To My Most Amiable Readers,Amidst the preparations for the move to the States, I have continually been drawn back to when we first closed up our life in Pennsylvania and headed to Chile, Sophia being two and Edison all of two months old. I wrote my misgivings in my journal, the same which will receive the outpouring of my emotions this go-around.
September 30, 2005
"Are we really doing this? I see that we are. We no longer have a home, everything we own has been packed, stored, or sold. God is so good. The car sold right away. God sent His peace on us as we said goodbyes and wrapped up our life here stateside. But, I'm scared. I sit in Miami airport, ready to fly to Santiago in two hours and I'm sad-afraid-tired-excited-joyful-TIRED. All wrapped up, the result is numbness.
Unshed tears are continually stinging my eyes. Nancy had good advice, to have a good deep cry on the way. I don't know if I will or not, but it feels good to give myself permission to grieve. Grieve the friends and family I've left behind. Grieve the loss of our quiet log cabin and our way of life there. Above all, it's the relationships.
It's so hard.
Are we really doing this? How crazy are we? Our dream is coming true and I'm shy to embrace it, afraid I have dreamed too big for such a small woman. My comfort is this; that God will give me the words, that God is in me, that God has plans for me, that God is in control, that it doesn't all somehow hinge on me, that I am a tool in His hand. And....He loves me. He does."
As I face again the separation from those I love, from my home, from my garden which has been a joy to me, from the constant companion of the Andes, looming blue on the horizon, from the joy of rowing with my friends on the glass-like water of the canal, may you remember me in prayer. Oh, please, for I dearly need it.
Your Most Devoted,
Sarah
9 comments:
I pray for you constantly dear friend. Constantly. May you have peace even through all the tears and grief. I am slowly learning, too, to grieve, and that it's okay to shed tears.
Be strong and keep trusting God. He does love you and has a plan in this next phase for your family! Keep following Him wherever He leads and the adventure will never end! We are praying for you and as I read this and see your pictures I cry along with you as I can imagine how difficult this must be for you guys!
Just found your blog on the EMM website & have been considering going through EMM to serve abroad. I saw taht you're from Great Falls. I'm currently living in Helena. If you find yourself in MT, I'd love to ask you more questions about your service in Chile :)
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